Probably the last post before CFP exam on FRIDAY! (OMG!)

Hello folks, it's been a long week.  A very L-O-N-G week, and it's only Wednesday.  This will probably be my last post before big nasty ensues!

When last we left, Grandma Jo had just passed and we were recovering...that was very difficult.  You think about calling her, and then you realize you can't.  But, on the upside, I think her hand is behind me as I go for my test!  She always had questions about finances, and while she might not listen to her son (J's Dad), she always at least pretended to listen to what financial advice I had for her.  ;)

Studying was progressing, but very slowly and painfully.  It didn't help that AF showed up Monday Tuesday (I thought she got in Monday, but Tuesday she proved she didn't until Tuesday).  It was a rough one...I was laid out, opting between curled in a ball on the bed and looking for more pain killers.  Boot camp was a "hell-no-go" and the rest of the day I felt pretty blah...actually studied in bed and took a 4-hour practice exam.  Yup, 4 hours.  But somehow I finished about hour 3 and got my highest score to date - yesterday.  Still wasn't over passing, but 1 question away!  Then, last night, J brought in my birthday card from Grandma Jo.  Wow, it was like she knew what was happening.  It was all about believing in yourself.  Who is to say that someone (from above) isn't leading our hand when we pick cards like that?  Not me.  So yup, cried last night.

Today, there was a different energy about than the last 2 days.  I've felt a bit better on the AF front, and almost energized.  I don't know if the adrenaline has started to brew or what, but I took a 3 hour practice test today and get this, scored WAY ABOVE passing!  There is hope!  I also re-wrote a bunch of my notes today so they would be ingrained in my head, the couple subjects that I struggle with - that was before the test.  I felt better as I wrote down the last answer, and then had some intrepidation as I went to score it.  Star after star after star, and as I tallied, hey, way below the amount of wrong answers that would have failed me! 

Tomorrow, I'll go to boot camp (if it kills me, or Meanie Christinie probably will), take the last practice exam, then head to Phoenix.  Study a little more in the afternoon, and then relax with a glass of wine.  Friday, the fun begins.  Test starts at 1 pm (so send prayers before then for calmness) and goes until 5 pm.  Saturday, there's 2 separate sections 9-noon and 1:30-4:30 pm.  So again, prayers before then would be great.  I plan to workout in the morning, at least a little bit, with flash cards in hand, and run a couple questions just to get me in the right mentality.  Then, here goes nothing.

So when we meet next, I'll probably be drunk.  Just kidding, I won't write while I'm drunk! ;) I anticipate being more relaxed, because at that point, all I can do is wait and I can't change my fate at that point.  (Remind me of this notion when I start blathering on about how I think I failed and what not okay?!) 

Off to do a quick study of my notes that I want to remember to transfer to the scratch paper when I get into the test, then make something for dinner and finish up the laundry.

Have a wonderful evening y'all, and before I forget, thank you so much for all the support you have offered here, in person or just via prayer.  I've needed it and I've felt the love.  So thanks again!  Just don't stop until Sat, I mean January when I get my score!

LOVE!