A quick medical update - I did have a doc appointment on Wednesday, but unfortunately Dr. OB had a family emergency out of town and had to skedaddle, so she wasn't there. Nurse Shari weighed me and took my blood pressure to make sure it wasn't going up, which it wasn't - nor was my weight. And declared me done. Will see Dr. OB once more on Monday, and if we're all the same, then C-section is good to go on Thursday. If by some miracle (and it could happen with all the people prayin' for us out there) she turns by Monday, we'll go natural. But she's a stubborn one, and I think she gets most of it from J's Grandma, for who her middle name comes from (the middle name also comes from my Grandpa's middle name, but he wasn't stubborn!). So I'm banking on Thursday. Okay, now to the real meat of this post.
You folks surely feel blessed this week because you have had a post almost every-freakin'-day! Don't get used to it. Remember, next week I'm having a baby.
"I'm having a baby."
Wow. I can honestly tell you there were days where I never thought I would be able to say that. Weeks and months even where I was sure I was not meant to be pregnant or birth a child. (And there go the waterworks again!) I remember a lot of low times in the past 5 years where I felt so broken. And here I am now, 38 weeks and 5 days pregnant, anticipating a c-section next Thursday where I will get to meet our daughter. I wake up each and every day amazed that we have actually made it through this process.
I have knitted baby blankets for many of my friends - 37 to be exact - yes I kept track (one of those was actually for my mom and one was for J, but the rest were all for babies!). I started in 2006, even before we were really "trying" but with the knowledge of if I started then, by the time our baby came along, I'd be a pro. Only at that time, I didn't know how much of a pro! Well today folks, I finished baby Reese's blanket. And as I held it and said out loud, "this is for my daughter" I couldn't help but tear up. Here it is for your viewing pleasure.
We have waited so very long for this day and I can't believe in less than a week, we will be parents. I just can't fathom it even though I know it is rapidly approaching. I mean I can, but I can't. Because for so long it felt like it would never happen, and it finally did. We are on the precipice and we made it. Who knew?!
But I think we are officially ready. The nursery is done - save for the picture that came in yesterday's mail that needs to be hung of J kissing my belly (part of our maternity photo shoot). Everything is washed and ready. My last official day AT the office is Monday, and my last official day WORKING is Tuesday. Wednesday will be spent washing sheets and towels so we'll have nice clean stuff when we come home. And then Thursday, we go to the hospital uber-early and we have a baby.
There it is again...we have a baby. Oy. I still can't believe it.
I still need to link up the baby monitor to the cameras, finish packing, make cookies for my doc's office and the hospital maternity nurses and docs and J needs to put the bases in the cars for the car seat. But other than that, we are ready. Reese may not be - at the moment she is hanging (literally) from my ribs with her head close to my heart it seems. But this little game of hide-and-seek is due to end Thursday, at the latest.
And from Thursday on, we will be a trio, instead of a couple. I know our lives will change dramatically, but it will be such an adventure.
Here's to our last weekend as two married people...next week, we'll be a family.
Happy weekend and Happy Easter folks.