Hmmm....

So I know I already tested today and it was negative, but I couldn't get it out of my head that the test felt like it was wrong - the main reason I took 2 of them, I didn't believe the first! All morning at the gym, I couldn't shake it that I still didn't believe them. So after I left I called my RE's office and spoke with Nurse Pamela. Told her the situation and asked if I could be one of the few women that would never pop up on a pg pee test. She said it is possible and in fact she was that way, as was another woman that came in today. Turns out it isn't that uncommon. So her advice was to stay with the Prometrium for a couple more days and then test again if AF doesn't show. She said, sooner or later if you aren't pg no matter if you are on Prometrium, AF will break through. But if after 3 days no AF and no positive test, call and schedule a blood test. Also asked how much of a difference three days makes and she said it could be a lot.

So now not sure what is going on. Will continue drug until Monday or AF shows and go from there. However, am having some AF like cramps today that could be Mother Nature's way of telling me to save the stress and know this isn't it. But won't know until AF shows up or another neg test. But I just can't shake that the tests this morning were WRONG!

Went and had my pedicure with Talia and the kids. Ava (2.5 yrs old) had her first pedi and was so cute. She alone makes me want a baby, even when she gets crabby! I love that she knows me and right when I got to the spa she gave me big kisses and was lovin' on me. Nice pedi and then off to Eegee's for lunch...had only had 1 point thus far, so splurged and had fries. Then ran to the grocery store and off to pick up Sierra from the groomer. By the time I got home I was sweating like crazy and a little nauceous, which again could be AF or pg.

DH called (did I mention he is the best?! and I think he was convinced this was our time too because he seemed upset and more consoling than usual) to check on me. I told him what the doc said and he said, "well, lets hope you don't get your period then!" For him to say that word (period) is huge, so I know he wants this! Anyway, keep us in your prayers and maybe this ride isn't over yet.

Happy 4th all!

Disappointing

You can stop holding your breath folks, both tests came back negative.

I was really nervous to take them but I did, at 5 am this morning, after another dream that was crazy and this time about babies. I took one and I literally didn't believe it, so I took another to make sure. At one point I even thought I saw a ghost line. So I left them on the counter and went back to bed...and checked them again at 7:30 am, nope...just the one stupid line!

Didn't cry immediately...was actually very calm. However, when DH rolled over and asked if I had tested and I shook my head, and he said, "it was negative?" I lost it. He took my hand and I rolled over to him and he just let me cry. I was so sure this was it. So we begin again.

Well, this will still be a good day...I'm determined. I am dropping my furry baby girl at the groomers, working out, and going for a pedicure with a friend and her daughter and son, then lunch at Eegee's. Pick up the dog, and hit the grocery store to prep for tomorrow's party. Then going to dinner with my parents and Grandma for her 82nd birthday. So hopefully the busyness of it all will keep my mind in the right spot. And I get to have a drink until AF ends, so that is nice.

I was so sure this was it. Never felt this sure ever before. This process sucks!

Did I say this already?

Have I said I am nervous? Because I truely am! Really! I'm sweating like crazy, don't know if it is due to nerves or other things! ARGH! Only about 14 hours til test!

PRAY FOR US!

Nervous...anyone else nervous?

I debated with myself all the way home from work about whether to test this morning or not. I am supposed to take the Prometrium 2x a day from Day 18 to Day 32 of my cycle, then test. Today is day 32 and I so badly wanted to test this morning but I am so scared and nervous. I feel in my gut that we are pregnant - just little things happening to me (Acu last week, the dentist, the crazy dreams I am having - don't usually dream, little cramps and little nausea, etc) and just this feeling that we did it. But I am really scared I will test and it will be negative (as it has been for the last 2 years)! I don't want my bubble to burst!

I know that if it doesn't happen this month we will continue to try, but over the last 2 years, I have never felt so strongly that I am pregnant! NEVER! I keep praying and talking to my belly, hoping there is someone in there to hear it.

Keep us in your prayers!