Thursday, August 6, 2009

New Perspective, maybe?

I took the week off from working out, partly due to not feeling well, but also partly due to just needing a break. I have been so consistent over the last couple months, so I figure a week off is good for my mental state and me in general.

So this week has definitely been an eye opener as far as my fertility goes. I was upset yesterday when I got the negative pregnancy test, don't get me wrong. And I called the doc's office and they were helpful in determining what the next step should be, knowing that I really don't want a lot of intervention from the doctor's and I really thought we could do this without the doc, but apparently we need some help. DH was diagnosed with low motility a couple months ago, and the procedure we have decided to do should help with that issue. The procedure is called IUI and below is a little about it from a website I like called Fertility Life Lines:

Intrauterine insemination (IUI) can be performed using the woman’s partner's sperm or donor sperm.

When using the male's sperm, the male produces a specimen, either at home or at the clinic or doctor's office. The sperm is then prepared for IUI.

Sperm from the male partner or third-party donor are screened to choose only the active sperm from the man's ejaculate. They are then concentrated into a small volume. The sperm are "washed" to remove potentially toxic chemicals that may cause adverse reactions in the uterus.

The doctor then uses a soft catheter, which is passed through a speculum directly into the woman's uterus to inject the semen. Insemination is done when a woman is ovulating, usually within 24 to 36 hours after a luteinizing hormone (LH) surge is detected. Ovulation is predicted by a urine test kit or blood test and ultrasound. Ovulation-stimulating drugs are usually given to the patient beforehand.

IUI may be done in conjunction with ovulatory medications. If injectable ovulation stimulating drugs are used, it's essential to perform careful monitoring, including periodic blood tests and ultrasounds beginning around day six of the woman's cycle. Test results will show when eggs are mature, prompting the human choriogonadotropin (hCG) shot.

IUI is a quick procedure that is done in the doctor's office without anesthesia. It should not be painful, but some women experience mild discomfort.

So in thinking about this procedure last night (a couple friends of ours did it and now have a beautiful little boy, and if I remember right, they tried for 3 years and she is quite a bit older than me) I figured that maybe God is leading us towards this, because before yesterday I was never ready for this. DH has some spermies that aren't in the best condition, so maybe this is God's way of showing us that we do need a little help because he wants us to have a perfect baby and not use any of the spermies that aren't just that. The doc says the procedure has about a 15% success rate (obviously our success rate has been less over the past 2 years) and it is upped a bit because of the fertility drugs I will be on. Now I checked into the drugs a bit as I did Clomid for 6 months and had awful side effects (extreme exhaustion, mood swings, hot flashes and added sweating). The new drug is called Letrazol and is supposed to have very few side effects, the only one being tiredness during the 5 days you take it (day 3-7) so I think I can handle that.

AF still hasn't come so when it does, I call the office and schedule my ultrasound for Day 10, 11 or 12. Then, go in on that day for the Ultrasound to see how many follicules there are. From there, what I understand is they will monitor me maybe every couple days and see when it looks like I am ovulating, at which point, DH needs to race to the doc's office to do his thing. They will then "clean" his sample, and put it where it is supposed to be. Then we start our waiting and praying.

I was also thinking that when I get pregnant, I don't think I will know what to do with myself. I've worked so hard on getting pregnant and done all the research there, so once we get pregnant, I won't know what to do with myself. Trust me, there are books gathering dust in my closet so I will be reading like a mad-woman, but still it is a little scary. But I am so ready!!! DH is too!

Every month in the past when we have found out that we aren't pregnant, DH has said, "should we get help like our friends did?" and I put it off. So now I am ready to do this. I'm a little sad that I've done so well on WW and I will have to start over, but I think I will be able to still follow it a little bit so I am keeping in the right portions and hopefully not gain a lot of wait, or reallocate what I have just to my belly! Wishful thinking!

DH is worried about the cost (which is about $700) but it is so much cheaper that IVF (about $15,000), and I think at this point it is worthwhile. That is why we have savings!

So pray that this will work and we only have to try it once. Thanks for all the love of those who read this and give me your support. And for all those women who are blessed to have children without any doctor's intervention, please know how blessed you are! I envy you all so much! And am thankful to have learned much from my friends who have already had babies out there!

Ok, enough rambling. Back to work!

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

And the answer is...

It was apparently nothing! Damn it! This sucks!

So called the doc's office this morning to get their take on the symptoms I have been having and see what they think. She explained the headaches could come from the drop in estrogen after there is no egg in the uteran lining. So I guess we start over yet again. Asked the nurse about the IUI and she said the drugs associated with it aren't as hard on the system as the Clomid, so Dr. H is calling later today to discuss. I think I am finally ready for this next step. Now just have to figure out how it goes.

And we go again!

I haven't worked out since Sunday because I haven't felt good at all. Hopefully tomorrow will be better and I can get back to it.

UPDATE: Got the new fertility drugs and start on day 3, but have to get to day 1 first. Hopefully this round works and we don't have to do it twice. This definetly isn't the cheap way to get prego, but the other drugs aren't that cheap either. Wish us luck, the doc will have a hand in it this month - we go for IUI now! Will keep you posted on all that happens! Should be entertaining at the very least.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Symptoms or nothing?

So since Saturday I would say I have had some odd symptoms. Headache, tummy ache, cramps, nausea, and exhaustion. I don't know if they are linked to pregnancy (test day is tomorrow) or just random and I am linking them to pregnancy because that is our goal. So here I am laying out what is going on in my head and what these symptoms could be:

1) Headache - had one on and off for the last 4 days. Could be stress (I clench my teeth when I get stressed, thus induce a headache, although I don't think I have for the last 4 days), too tight hair tie, or I am Pregnant.

2) Tummy ache - again, on and off for the last 4 days. Could be eating badly or too much, or I am Pregnant.

3) Cramps - on and off for probably last week, not severe either. Could be AF is on the way, or I am Pregnant.

4) Nausea - just little bits for the last 4 days, not horrible either, just small inclinations. Again, could be AF on the way, or I am Pregnant.

5) Exhaustion - a lot over the last 4 days. (Fri - no energy after workout,; Sat - in Phx with In-laws, had to lay down after lunch - napped for about an hour and half; Sun - couldn't finish my usual 90 mins in pool, got out after 60 mins, came home and took 2-3 hour nap; Mon - just very tired in afternoon.) Could be working out too much, stress, AF coming or I am Pregnant.

You all know that I vote for the last one, but don't want to get my hopes up. Let's hope that I am Pregnant!!!!! Test day is tomorrow and I am trying not to focus on it, so once I close the blog, I am trying not to think about it until tomorrow morning! LUCK please!

On a different note, at WW this morning I was down 2.8 lbs from the last time I was at a meeting (2 weeks ago) which puts me at a total of 12 lbs!! YAY ME! At the meeting, they ask who hit a milestone and for the first time, I could raise my hand and say ME! Plus I got a blue ribbon saying "I lost 10 lbs"! So happy note there at least!

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Sick? Pregnant?

So not feelin' all that hot today. Kinda was down yesterday too. We drove up to Phoenix for MIL's birthday and after lunch out, I just needed to lay down for a nap - so tired, headache and tummy ache. Then out to the pool for a swim, and about 30 mins into it DH looks down and he is covered in rash. He got out and we got him fixed up with Benadryl, but everyone else got out then too. Quick relax, then back on the road to come home.

Woke up this morning and just wasn't feeling going swimming, but when I got on the scale it was high, so that meant I went. Did okay for a while then decided I was done. Tummy started hurting again and kinda felt like cramps, and just awful tired. So I swam an hour instead of 1.5 hours. Still swam. Hit Trader Joe's for some bran muffins and produce, then home and took a nap. Pretty lazy day, just didn't feel good and still don't. So I am heading to bad. Hoping this isn't a cold or flu, but something else better. Wednesday will tell I guess. Night!